Life

Tuesday, September 2, 2008
6:45 PM

seriously... i dunno wat i really want in my life..

i want friends + family + freedom
i want attention + alone? -.-
i want people to please me when im upset?

now u see what type of person i am...
im jus a freaking selfish gal..
freaking pestimistic gal..
freaking petty gal..

what i want in my life..
i seriously..
dont know..
and maybe.. i might not want to know...

do i really treat my friends well enough?
did i give them the attention jus as enough as i want from them?
did i give them the same amount of freedom as i want from them?
did i try and please them when they are upset?
will i try to do stupid things to make them laugh?

seriously..
sometimes...
i really dunno myself..
do i really deserve what i get from my friends?

i did try my best to make people feel bad.. did i?
i did try my best to give them the freedom they want... i guess its too much huh?
i did try my best to do stupid things to make them smile.. did i??
i think... i did try my best to get attention from them... but not giving the same amt back...

i always shut myself... making people dunno how to approach me when im abit upset..
cus i sound like i will kill...
or might even get more worse?

i guess.. im real bad huh?
=/

kazzie!!
=/
i miss you...
u always cheer me up with out fail...><
sigh...
wish u were here now..
when u come back... we go b&j again!
wakakka
sien...

i know what u will say la...
even with out u i still got alot friends right??
lolx...
i myself.. dunno if i really treating them as a real true friend...=/

but i know u are... and u are treating me the same as i treat u... or might be even more...
thx kaz...=/
lolx... i got a feeling u wont be even reading this...
rofl...

we miss you~ ^^
be safe!
take care...