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Just another day??? Sushi~!!!!!!!! T____T

Tuesday, August 19, 2008
2:48 PM

what am i suppose to do?? which choice is better for me to be in??
to be straight forward.. so u can feel worst? and so u can change?
or
to keep quiet about everything... or jus agree to everything thing... so u can feel better.. and wont change?
watever i say or do... in a way im still feeling bad.. or worse?

im not the kind that wont care about other's feelings...
and
i dun wan myself to feel this way also...

so what am i suppose to do??
to make both ways work?

i seriously... wan to keep my road clear...
what the hell i am doing now..
im not sure myself too..

i know myself...
where i stand...
how i feel...
no one can feel better den only myself..
no one will beable to understand me more than myself..
its jus that... i dunno wat to do anymore...
i have my own feelings...
i have my dignity...
my own pride...
im not that thickskin to do or say watever i wan to..

im not the kind that will hurt people like this...
sigh...

cravings for sushi from morning till now... dumb dumb Mr Or Ah Jian... temp me..sia me... keep tell be sushi sushi...zzzz...
still say i fat... T____T

* strangles *
rawr!!
if u are reading this... what i have said above mean no harm at all..... im just lost.... im not writing these to make u feel worse or anything... but even if i say this it wont do any better right?? if so...dun read my blog anymore... cus im jus afraid i might indirectly hurt u... or make u upset...
hope u understand...