Life

Wednesday, May 7, 2008
12:17 PM

sigh...is it my fault to be busy?? dun have time for you guys?? its my fault now huh?? so.. i should'nt find a job to support myself because i wanna go out with you guys?? because if i work i will have lesser time with u guys??im just telling you that i wanna find a job... im might wanna work! and it doesnt really need to be us going out, dun you see?? it can be us going our tgt once a month...to be tgt, doesnt means that we need to be outside tgt to be or to stay as friends!!
feeling inside, that you care and you concern about them... its not like what you are doing to me!!!
i DUN wanna be u 2 de light bulb... it sux... really sux... why cant you jus understand how i feel now... by you writing down what you feel about me on ur msn nick.. you know how hurt i felt..we jus went out tgt less den one month ago!!!
dun you understand that its not that i dun wanna go out... its jus that i dun wanna pull the mood down... not going out doesnt means not contacting!!i still update myself on ur blog EVERY DAY..
sigh..its my fault... all my fault... blame all you want on me... i will accept it..
its all my fault..

i dun need people to pity me... i am just who i am.. and it doesnt have to be when im unhappy den i need to go out...
i stayed at home is also because i dun have money to spend outside...
dun you jus understand???
i dun feel good spending other's money!

sigh....

-stupid idiotic gal-